How to Disappear

--Rae Armantrout

1

You had been swinging restlessly

between the appearance of spontaneity

and the appearance of serious thought.

You had been changing lanes

after a glance

in a mirror honest about

its tendency to distort.

What choice did you have?

It was soothing to watch

wisps of smoke

from a nearby chimney

disappearing

one by one.

2

Do you like pulses,

ridges, ripples

stretching into obscurity?

Would you prefer a flicker

to a steady light source?

This one stutters

slightly,

hesitant,

as if it could hold something

in reserve